To Work Again?

I have this tempting thought of going back to the corporate world again. It's just that there are times when the idea comes to my mind and I cannot shrugged it off. Also, we have a lot of financial goals setup and I wanted to find a way to help my husband. But thinking about getting up early, spending eight hours in the office and kissing somebody else a$$ just for the sake of money is not my idea of spending my time away from my daughter. And as my husband said, I am already earning more than what an employee earn so why put myself into that kind of trouble right?

And now to add to my reason of not working again. One night while the little one was crying because she misses her daddy, I told her that I would let daddy come home provided that I will be the one to work. I thought she would agree but alas! she cried harder and keep on telling me that she does not want me to work in the office. haha. And here I am thinking that she had no idea of office work etc.

So yes, I won't work again baby, of course, not unless when I really needed to.

Summer Plans

Of course, I need to make sure that I am fully recovered before I start planning for summer. But if my instinct is right then I am on my way to being able to get up on my own two feet again before March. So, I cannot shake off that feeling of wanting to hit the beach or travel to a nice destination this coming May. Why this month? Because on this month we celebrate my birthday, mother's day and our wedding anniversary. I know we cannot go and join cruises to Bermuda but I am keeping my fingers crossed that somehow we can have a vacation somewhere far from the metro.

As of this moment, our summer includes the husband coming home, Anevay being a flower girl to two of her god mother ( wedding venue is in the province for both ) and I am planning on enrolling the little girl into ballet classes again. Also, I do hope we can resume her enopi sessions. But all these plans depend on -- my health, the climate and our budget. haha. I am bent on saving a lot of funds because we have so many things line up for this year and next year. And of course, it also depends on HIS will and HIS PLANS. Thy will be done.

A New Blog

I am in a 'tinkering' mood this week. So I did a lot of techy stuff and honestly I enjoyed it. It's been so long since I have that mood. And one of the things that I did was set up another blog. But it's a different blog. A personal one and it's on the free wordpress directories. All entries there are personal and are day to day accounts of how we spend the day. I set it up just for my husband :) so that there won't be 'commercials' in it.

On that blog I write without limitations. I also make it a point to put everything about Anevay there. So it's my reference about the little girl. Here are some thiings that I wrote.

Monday.

She came home shouting "Mommy, I got something for you! ". She always do that when she did something in school and her teacher let her bring it at home to show it to me. She was all smile when she open her envelope. Only to find out that the art work is not there. haha. She was so disappointed and almost close to tears. I just told her that Teacher will give it to me on Valentine's day.

Tuesday.

When she came home she said " Mommy, I have a secret! I made a heart for you and Teacher told me not to tell you " haha.

That night, she cried telling me that she misses her daddy. We called Daddy and she still cried.

Wednesday.

She went to the Holy Family and said " Jesus, please give me a baby brother. One that looks like me".

Today, we heard her say. Ako, nde DS, ako IPAD. haha. It's her way of saying, I don't play on the DS but I have my IPAD. hahaha. She's trying to speak in Filipino.

Ready for Big School?

In June (opening of school year) Anevay is still four years old. But come July she will be five. My mind is still debating if I should enroll her in big school already or not. She already spend two years in pre school and both the school she attended are progressive. Now I am thinking if it's time to put her in a traditional school. I have yet to decide. If you asked me know, my answer won't be as bright as the lightniing that is brought about by Seagull lighting.

I am torn. I wanted to put her already in big school. I think it's time since she is turning five by July. Yet, I am hesitant because of many factors. One, she still cannot speak and understand Filipino. Which as we all know is language that everyone in school speaks. She will have a hard time adjusting to the Filipino speaking environment. I wanted her to learn Filipino first. And two, I wanted her to fully enjoy another school year in her current school. They only have few students so they are well taken cared of. She missed a lot of school activities (which can be attributed to me being bedridden) and I wanted her to participate in those.

It's so hard to decide. I am looking forward to my complete recovery so that I start my scouting and go from there.

Past Two Mornings

Edgy again. The little one is having another bouts of cough and colds. And in the past two mornings she alway wakes up at early hours. Last Thursday, she woke up at around 3:30am and this morning 4:30, imagine that! It's a blessing that my older sister wakes up early too and cook so that she can have pack lunch. I think it's the weather that is causing the cough and cold. I don't know how to remedy it but to let the little one drink her cough medicine. I am praying that by tomorrow she'll be okay already. She have been absent from school from this past two days. And today they have another learning trip in the post office. I am regretting the fact that Anevay have not been able to joined any learning trip yet. I do hope in the next school year she would be able to.

Weight Issue

Yesterday, Anevay asked me to see some of her baby pictures. I obliged and somehow the pictures made me both happy and sad. Happy because they are reminders how blessed we are as a family. Sad because I saw how much weight I have gain throughout the years. haha. I can blame it to lupus, my prednisone (steriods) intake and of course over eating and my love for chocolates and soda. I admit I do not have the right discipline when it comes to eating. Here is one of the picture wherein I am not overweight.

I am thinner as compared to this picture which was taken first week of January from the DS Lite of my niece.

I am bloated, yes. Because I am currently on high dose prednisone. My doctors are telling me that once the swelling stop, my face would be smaller. Actually it's only my face that is big, my body is not that affected by the steriod. Though I wish I had that supermodel body but I know I have to undergo liposuction to be able to achieved that body that I am aiming for. Sometimes I tell my husband to save some money because when I am well and back to my feet I would be undergoing the said procedure. haha. Of course, he knows I am kidding.

Ah, but I really have to lose weight. It's frustrating to look at my old pictures and see the pounds that I have collected through the years. Actually only for five years. I wish I can go back to the weight that is ideal to me. And hopefully I can do that through eating with discipline and the will power to exercise.

Personal Creations

I cannot wait for February to come. I am keeping my fingers crossed that this will be the month where I can return to my normal life. I am looking forward to it especially now that I have been really recovering from my operation. The other day I was so surprised when I was able to stand on my own using just my hands and left foot. Now, I can get up from our bed to the walker without any assistance. I am taking this as a good sign. I wanted to be up on my feet by February so that by the time of my niece party I can walk normally.

The party is scheduled on March. Now, aside from looking for the my dress and the little girl, I am thinking of what to give as a gift. For inspiration, I am looking into teenager girl gifts at Personal Creations. As I look at the items, I wishfully thought of being a teenager again and having those kinds of stuff. Kids and teenagers are so lucky nowadays. A lot of products have been made for them and it's easier to order because you already have the internet, right? I guess the same goes to mothers like me. haha.

The Butterfly

Because of the cold season, most of the classmates of the little girl are absent. Last Monday, only four of them attended class and yesterday only three. I wonder how many are able to attend today's class.

Despite the low attendance, the little one still enjoys her classes. Yesterday she was so excited when she came home. Upon reaching the door, she was already shouting, Mommy I have a surprise for you! It's a secret! haha. Then she rushed to our room and excitedly open her envelope. She showed me a butterfly which she had drawn and colore.

Thanks to her teacher ( who never fails to take a picture of the kid's milestone) I have a picture of Anevay and her butterfly.

The Solar System

I have a very inquisitive child. She always asked question about the things that she sees. May it be a whistler radar or just the reading glasses that I am wearing. Sometimes the questions are simple to answer but most of the time they are a bit complicated that would just leave you scratching your head. Recently, she has been asking a lot of questions about the solar system. Oh yeah. Some of her questions are : Why can't we live in Mars? Why is the sun hot? Why is the Earth the only planet we can live in? What is the second planet? What is an asteroids? Yap. I feel like I have been thrown back to my school days and I have an exam that I needed to review so that I can get the perfect score. haha.

Since I wanted to give her the right answer, I really have to review my Science. I have been the top student during my school days but age and lupus has diminished my memory powers. And because I am a mom who consider technology and gadgets her friends I look for some applications in the Ipad Market that teaches about Solar System. And guess what I found a lot. But the one that I like about is the app which has Astronaut Ashley talking about the solar system. She also gives out some exam after the discussion. and if you answered all her questions correctly she would give you a sticker. And since the questions are just repeating, anevay have lots of sticker already. Which she used to tell a story. haha.

The Piggy Bank

Yesterday, while anevay was helping her Ate Bumay clean up her school bag she noticed some coins in the bag. Her Ate Bumay let her hold the coins. Once she got the coins, Anevay hurriedly went to the room and is already putting the coins in her piggy bank. I stopped her because I know the coins belong to her Ate Buma and she is using them to buy some snacks when in school. But the little one won't budge at first so I have to explained to her and then asked her a few questions. I asked her why she is putting the coins in the piggy bank. She told me that she needs to have lots of money so that daddy would just stay here with us. Aww. that melts my heart.

Every night, we have this question and answer portion. And it is so hard to explain to a four year old why her daddy has to leave us and work outside the country. Although her daddy makes it a point to call us every night when he can, and every weekend we chat still she missed the physical presence of her daddy. OH man, it is so hard. Yet, I am hoping that in the near future the husband won't have to go abroad to work or if that's not possible I just pray that the tight father and daughter bond between them would always be there.

7th Birthday

My older sister's daughter will be celebrating her 7th birthday this March. And she requested that they have a party for her birthday instead of going to HK disneyland. She is the one who is already planning for the party and she wanted all those 7 stuffs for her birthday. Seven treasures, seven roses, seven candles etc. She also wants photo booth, face painting and even putting tattoo on her guest. Good thing her idea of tattoo are those that are being sold in toy stores where in you only have to wet the stickers and it would stick in your body or else if she wanted the real one we would be looking for some best tattoo removal cream. Now, that would be a big problem!

And so my sister is now currently planning what to do for her daughter's birthday party. While I am also planning because I don't know if at that time of the birthday I am already fully recovered (meaning I am already walking normally). I also have to think of the party dress of my little girl since she would be speaking on her ate aish's birthday not to mention my dress also. Oh, I wish I would be okay before this time.

My Growing Little Girl

As I am recovering, I cannot help but regret how for the past three months I was bound to the bed and our mother - daughter activity has been affected. We have not been to the mall which is one of our favorite weekly activity. She no longer attends to her Enopi classes although I can see her big academic improvement. Thanks to her wonderful teachers in school. Also, as the owner of the school have said she seems more responsible now. In fact, she takes care of me. And she understood my situation. But what cracks me up sometimes is when she sees my tummy and she would say that she would be an older sister soon. haha. Does this means I need to take nature made prenatal vitaminsÊ with dha ? haha. If her prayer would be answered, she won't be the only one who would be very happy. The husband has been waiting for it for a long time now.

Anyway, back to my first born. I am just glad that she can now speak some tagalog words. Thanks to her tutor, Ate buma, her older cousin whom she regard as her older sister. I just hope that when the time comes that they would go back to their house, Anevay won't be hurt by the situation.

Missing Daddy

Ever since her daddy left for work, we ( Anevay and I ) have a hard time sleeping. I worry that I might need some effective acne treatment if this trend would keep on going. My face and body might suffer from lack of good sleep.

You see sometime after midnight ( though I am not really sure what time ), Anevay would wake up and would cry. And then she would say 'Where is daddy?'. Actually before she sleeps she would also cry and say 'I miss daddy'. She was used to having her daddy beside her everytime she sleeps and when she wakes. I really pity her but what I can I do. As the husband and I discussed, even if we wanted him to resign we cannot do it abruptly or else all our sacrifices would go to waste.

We have seen a lot of OFW families. All of them have been living in luxury if one member is working outside the country but once they stopped they would be back to zero. And we don't want that to happen to us. Although we know that the husband has a high market value and would be accepted readily for employment, no company here is the country would match what he is receiving abroad. So we really have to plan, save, invest and start a business before we decide for him to go home for good. And I hope and fervently pray that in two years time we can achieve that.

Pastillas de Anevay

In anevay's school they don't have PE day. As a replacement for it, they have what they call their CULINARY subject, wherein the kids would wear their chef uniform and would cook or bake in the assigned day. The school as I have blog earlier has a kitchen which was designed to fit the height of the preschoolers. Even the oven was custom made so that the kids can reach it. Even their electronics are positioned in such a way that kids can used them on their own. Of course, the teachers are there to monitor them.

Yesterday, it was culinary day for them. In the past, the teachers have a hard time making Anevay touch the meat and vegetables. She really won't touch anything slimy. haha. She would say it's goowie and yuckie. But yesterday it was different. I was not their to witness it but based on Anevay's story she had fun making Pastillas. She told me that she have dipped the candies in the sugar and rolled them in her hands to form a circle. Then she wrapped them on the plastic and put her name on it. She proudly said to me that she did not make any mistakes in making the candies. I was so happy and proud when she was telling me all this. And she did not left our room until she saw me eating her candies. haha.

Oh, she is growing up so fast. Her daddy was so happy. He was able to go with her to school for two days and was able to take some pictures too. Here is anevay with her candies.

Her IPAD

When the husband bought the IPAD of Anevay, he already bought a case for it since we fear that she might drop it. But I was telling him to find another one locally. So when he had time last week, he went to the MAC Store in one of the nearby malls, unfortunately according to him they are not selling any ipad cases. So now we are still using the case that he bought in Kuwait. And thankfully, the IPAD only suffered one fall as of this time. haha.

The IPAD have been a nice toy for the little girl. I was able to download a lot of games that are applicable to her age. I also love the story books that are free for download. Imagine, we were able to get the Toy Story book for her. She really love it. Along with the Bratz and Barbie games. Although, I have not yet explored the full capabilities of it, I am happy that it can keep anevay busy for a couple of hours.

Nursing Uniforms

Anevay is scared of anybody in nursing uniforms. This can be traced to the time that she was hospitalized when she was one year old and later on when she was three years old when we rushed her to the emergency room because of high fever. Even now that she is four, she still cries at the moment she sees any medical staff.

I don't know how to erase that fear from her. According to a doctor that I have spoken too, one of the things I can do is her frequent visit to the clinic so that she can be familiar with the doctors and nurses and that would ease the tension she feel when she sees some medical staff in their medical scrubs and uniforms.

Well, I am not sure if I can follow that advise since we are way passed the stage where visit to her pedia clinic are once a month. But I guess, it would help if the medical staff were those elegants scrubs from medical uniforms store of Blueskycrubs.com.