I have been delaying writing about this for the longest time because it still really is painful to talk about my deceased parents. True, they have passed away 14 years ago but it still hurt thinking about them.
At age three, Anevay has started exploring. She likes to tell story and would adapt story telling that she watches on TV. Her favorite is COLIN from PLAYHOUSE DISNEY. One time a couple of weeks back, I was putting her to sleep we were talking about monster. Actually I was trying to scare her. Bad mommy, I know! hahaha. Anyway, while doing that she corrected me and said,
NO MOMMY! THAT'S NOT A MONSTER...THAT'S GRANDPA. I was a bit surprised because I have not yet talked to her about her grandparents. For my side both were deceased and for his dad's side both are detached from us. lol. They are in Cavite and don't visit us.
I was curious about her statement, that's why I probed some more. I asked her where her GRANDPA is and she answered, HE'S IN THE GARDEN! I really did not put anything on this incident since I assumed that its from one of the tv program that she was able to watch.
The next night we were talking she again talked about GRANDPA. This time I really got confused, glad, and a little bit scared. haha. Anevay blurted out
'MOMMY, my GRANDPA is GONE. He is DEAD. But WE ARE GOING TO SM!'. It was the first time that I heard her say the word DEAD. A few minutes later she said that
GRANDPA is SO FAR FAR AWAY!This time I can no longer ignore the incident. So I told my brother and sister about it. When we visited my older brother's apartment, he took out the our family picture that was taken ages ago. I think I was in high school then. My brother showed Anevay the picture and she was able to point out my father. She said that's her GRANDPA. We are a bit in awe. We don't know what really happen and what's going on.
But yesterday while we were on the garage, Anevay pointed to the corner on the gate and said Mommy, there's my GRANDPA. I asked her, Do you see GRANDPA? She answered, Yes, I see grandpa but I am not coming with him. Bwahaha. I told him it's ok to play with grandpa but never ever come with him. lol.
I don't know how to explain this incident. Nor what to believe in. I even went to a point that I asked her teacher in school if they talk about grandparents and discuss them with the kids. I don't know if its Anevay's imagination but I am still thankful that one way or the other, if Papa really is showing himself to my little girl, it shows how much love he has for me. He first gave his birthday to Anevay (yes, they share the same birthday!) and now I want to believe that he is guarding his GRANDDAUGHTER the best that he could. Love you, Pa!