Dishearten

I know I always say this. That I would embrace all the things that comes my way in a positive attitude. But somehow now I cannot shrug off the disappointment when I saw the red stain in my underwear signaling the start of my period. And so no baby number two yet. I don't know. I was already counting the thought that I am pregnant by this time but as the husband reply said 'It's not yet time!'.

Knowing that God has a different plan for us gives me motivation to look forward to the future. But because of this I am now thinking of consulting my obgyne. I wanted to make sure that there is nothing wrong with me. And I am thankful that God did not gave us baby number two yet when according to my rheuma at a point that shows my LUPUS is active.

And so because of this our focus would now be on our plan to go to Kuwait in November. Who knows that's where baby number two would be conceived? As the husband would say Inshallah!