Slice of LIFE : 23 on the 23rd

This is my first time to join Slice of Life.

Slice of Life choices for the week of June 22, 2008 are:
1. Most Influential Public Person
2. A Birthday Celebration
3. Writer’s Choice - You may choose to write about anything that has happened or is happening in your life that you feel moved to share.

I'm choosing number 2 and 3 since I think my post would be a little of both.

So here goes :

Tomorrow, my little girl would be celebrating her 23rd month. One more month and she would be turning two. Time really fly so fast. From that infant who only knows to sleep and drink her milk to the toddler who is now all over the place.

I am a bit sentimental when I think of her turning two. She wasn't the only one born on that day. She share her birthday with my deceased father. Not only that, I always believed that WHEN A CHILD IS BORN, A MOTHER IS ALSO BORN. So, I think I too am sharing that day with her.

Its been 23 months since I become a MOM. It was not an easy ride. It is filled of bumps and thumps and even detours along the way. Before I become a MOM, some people doubted my capacity to give birth because of my LUPUS. When I become a MOM, they now questions my capability of child rearing to the point of making me feel undeserving to be called a MOTHER.

Those doubts sometimes gets into me but most of the time I put them aside. As day goes by I realized that being a mother is not accomplished overnight. You grow hand in hand with your baby. You are slowing learning the ropes of motherhood while your baby explore her new world. There are times that you stumble on your way but what is important is to learn from experience
and to raise up and fight the battle again. Just like a baby who is learning to walk, me too, as a mom, should never be afraid of raising again.

Being a mom, is a tough work. No leaves, no breaks but with lots of kisses and hugs. Every now and then when I hear my daughter giggle, shout, sing, count or recite the ABC, I cannot help but have tears in my eyes. I am amazed by the miracle unfolding in front of me. And it also tells me that GOD loves me very much inspite and despite of giving me LUPUS.

I know it would take a lifetime to tell if I am a good mother or not. But I won't mind. What I am after is the knowledge that I have a chance to raise GOOD KIDS and I would definitely take that chance.